transition time

Been thinking a lot this week about the transition in going from young, 20-something, drop everything and go, do whatever we want, stay up till all hours people... to young mom & dad, and young family we will become in 7 months or so. I've wrestled with it a bit... it's hard to realize how different things will be, but I know the sacrifice will be so so so worth it. I think it hit me because this week I missed 2 fun, random things I could have done with some of my best friends who don't have children, because I'm simply exhausted by 10:15 pm and can't barely keep my head up. It's utterly impossible when you are at this stage, and every friend I've spoken to who's been pregnant agrees that it is like this, especially in the first trimester. This baby begins to change the woman, I believe, long before it really truly affects the man. I had an emotional week, but as hormones are raging I believe this is ok. The amazing thing is seeing how Brian wants to help me as much as he can, and I appreciate every tiny move he makes for me and in helping me. But even at some moments, he needs his own time and to be able to go and just be free, especially if I'm just going to be sleeping! haha.

I guess I have this weird fear of losing friends and changing relationships when we have a child. I always do fear those two things anyway in friendships, especially after being hurt and burned by one a few years ago that has still to this day messed me up and makes me believe all our friends will inevitably get sick of or drop us. Regardless of that issue-that-is-totally-my-own ... I know things will inevitably change. But I pray that the transition will be smooth, and we won't fall off the face of the earth too much. But... if we do... it's worth it for that little life growing inside. Who knows how it will all be??

As you can see - I'm a crazy rollercoaster of this, that, and the other thing right now. So, bear with me!

hair cut

Got my hair cut shorter today. Always refreshing. But I didn't get a color, so I missed out on my favorite part, Ellen shampooing and massaging my head. I should have said yes when she asked if I wanted it!! Oh well. Maybe I'll hire her to come wash my hair everyday LOL. It's always good to do something good for your appearance, because at this point I just feel bloated and gross. I hope I start to "glow" soon. LOL. Only 2.5 more weeks till I hit 2nd trimester!!

Fun pregnancy conversation though with Ellen. It's always great to talk to young women who have just been through it themselves, they love to offer their experiences! Ellen was one of my best reactions when she found out I was pregnant. I thought she might faint! Haha.

some new people

Invited a few new people today. We'll see if it's worth just making it public (public in that you don't have to sign in) But I still don't think I'll tell everyone about it.

I mean, are that many people interested in my morning sickness? Probably not!

Let me know if you're interested in an RSS public feed and if it would make it easier for you!

lunchity lunch

Went to lunch with my good friend Kristin Untisz who I used to work with at EO a few months back. She is also pregnant and a few weeks ahead of me! I'm jealous of her tiny visible baby bump because she actually had a flat stomach to begin with :-)

Anyway it was so fun to be with a friend going through almost the same things as me and be able to talk baby without worrying about boring the other person. I pray we both have health pregnancies and babies. I feel close to her and her baby already!

I started wearing maternity close last week. I was just so sick of everything making me uncomfortable with it's tightness... I gave up. So I started earlier than some... who cares! And also found out Angie Collins, a fellow vocalist is pregnant with her fourth baby!! She's about 2 weeks behind me. So weird how so many pregnant women are surrounding me!!! And also my friend Penny, a fellow photographer, is right around where Kristin is, at about 12 weeks.

Crazy - baby time!! God please keep our growing babies safe and sound and under your complete protection. Only you are in control, and we will do our best to protect and care for our baby by our own actions - but ultimately you are deciding their fate and their lives! You are knitting them together! Praise God!

For today just trying to edit photos like a mad-woman and deal with this ridiculous heat and humidity! It is so nuts! It's amazing how it just makes me feel so gross!!