another wedding today

Feeling ok this morning other than some digestive issues this morning. I've been reading more and more about how early in pregnancy the digestive system can be so out of wack due to the hormones messing with how it all functions. I was worrying it might be bad for the baby, but after looking around at some pictures and seeing how my uterus is pushing everything around in there, even this early, I can see now how it's all separate and why certain things are hurting and seemingly malfunctioning. And now I understand why in the second trimester I'll stop having to pee SO much cuz my uterus will raise up. It's actually VERY weird, and realizing that in a few months all my intestines are going to be pushed up into my abdomenal cavity is freaking me out! haha. If you're interested in seeing some detailed interior organal woman pictures, you can click here. I'm sure it's not for everyone.

Well today I have a wedding to shoot (as usual) :-) and I'm not dreading it AS badly as I have been. It's more of a 7 hour deal instead of 8-9 and there is no album to put together afterwards, so I feel a bit more relaxed and excited to just do what i do. And knowing there are wedding photographers ALL over the country, and we're all working hard, makes me feel like part of the photog community :)

Just want to stay focused, energized and excited. It's tough sometimes - I kinda just want to stay here on the couch :-)

today is a wedding day

I am scared to think that every Saturday is going to be like this until September, around when I enter my second trimester. I pray it lifts sooner. I feel not as bad as some mornings, but I know its just because I am using my will power to hold off the debilitating nausea and fatigue that wants to overtake me. But today, it is not an option. I MUST be out the door by 12:45 pm today to go shoot a wedding for the rest of the day at the Peak.

I am scared my clients won't get my best work from me because I am nervous I will be constantly fighting back nausea and exhaustion, but I know I can do it. Luckily my amazing sister is coming with me. Jesus says, come to me Ye who are weary and burdened - I know you may all be looking at me going, come ON, you dont barely leave your house, how can you be weary --- and you're NOT burdened, you should be rejoicing! Believe me, I know these things, and they are truths that are certainly fact - but physical overwhelment and nausea and fatigue can just shut down all your normal, rational senses of who you should be.

But I know with Jesus I can conquer, and I will. Maybe this sounds dramatic, but it's where I am.